im such a pig... no wonder i have a body like this...

i spent the last week in my brother's apartment with my dad [yep, i finally saw him after a long time]. and guess what i did all the time i was there? eat, sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep... and oh, did i mention eat???

iba talaga pag andun ako sa bahay ng mga kuya ko.. feeling ko princess ako! wahehehe... eh kasi ako boss don eh... sa tv, ako may hawak ng remote control, pwede ko silang utus-utusan, pwede akong magpabili ng kahit na ano..

eh kaya eto, kain ako ng kain kasi pinapakain nila ako ng pinapakain... hindi sila pumapayag na hindi ako kumain ng sandamakmak na break fast, tapos may pagkain pa silang dala pag uwi galing sa hospital.. [silang dalawa ay nagtratrabaho sa hospital bilang mga CI]...

haaayyyy... masarap magkaroon ng mga kuya... pati load sagot nila!

got this from jenn...

sagutin daw ng purong tagalog sapagkat tagalog
ang tanong!!!

>>makulit ka ba? kung oo, paano?
--ako? ako? makulit? ha? makulit? ako? makulit? oo!!!!

>>ano ang madalas pang asar ng mga kaibigan mo
sayo?
--seksi raw ako! hahahaha!!!

>>pikon ka ba?
--hinde, ako ang namimikon

>>pang ilan ka sa inyong magkakapatid?
--bunso

>>ikaw ba ay isang "positive thinker"?
--oo, positibo akong mag-isip

>>ano ang paborito mong numero?
--disisyete

>>bingi ka ba?
--ano?

>>saan mo gusto dito o doon?
--dito

>>matakaw ka ba?
--TANG INA INIINSULTO MO BA AKO!!!!!

>>ano ang mga paborito mong kulay?
--kahel

>>nakakain ka na ba ng hayop maliban sa manok,
baka at baboy?
--oo

>>galit ka ba sa mundo?
--minsan

>>naiinis ka ba sa mga taong kinukwento ang
katapusan ng pelikulang hindi mo pa napanood?
--ay nako, kulang nalang patayin ko sila!

>>saan ka mahilig sa sapatos o sa damit?
--sa wagwag din

>>sino mas gusto mo si juan o si pedro?
juan...
--si erwie

>>ang boses mo ba mataas o mababa?
--mabatas

>>nagtatago ka ba ng sama ng loob?
--oo naman!

>>sumasayaw ka ba?
--oo..pag lasing..sa kuwarto ko..sa banyo..hehe <-- parang kay jenn ren

>>magaling ka bang kumanta?
--umuulan kapag kakanta ako <-- ako ren

>>ano ang mas pipiliin mo ubo o sipon?
--"o"

>>natutulog ka ba ng patay o buhay ang ilaw?
--"o"

>>mas marami bang naidulot na masama o mabuti
ang
friendster saiyo?
--mabuti? meron ba?

>>mukha ka bang cartoon character? sino?
--hindi..mukha akong hollywood star(wooo!) <-- ako ren

>>saan mas masaya sa sun o sa moon? bakit?
-->sa moon

>>ano ang gusto mo sa lalake/babae, mahilig sa
sports o sa music?
--pareho

>>ano ang gusto mo sa lalake/babae, malinis lang
o gwapo/maganda?
--pareho

>>ano ang gagawin mo kung tubuan ka ng paa sa
noo
mo?
--aba, mahirap to ah!

>>ano ang gagawin mo kung bukas pag gising mo
naka kulong ka na?
--matutulog ako ulet

>>bakit bilog ang mundo?
--kasi hindi siya patag

>>inis ka ba? bakit ka naiinis?
--hinde

man, im having trouble making up my mind for a new lay-out! anyway, i've settled for this...

version 4.1.... point one because i had a version four which came online for about thirty minutes and then i didnt ike it and i made another one, and this is it... four point one everybody...

whew!

gotta sleep now.....

i removed the tagboard, i cant seem to find a space for it...

school is due tomorrow... so im making the best out of the last day of vacation... im going out with odie, catch some movie sa SM, eat out, and maybe drink out with friends...

we're going to start the rehearsals for the play tomorrow, and everyday after that... the competition is on the 22nd and all eyes are on our drama group...

i really hope we'll win... kahit hindi na ako tanghaling best director or best scriptwriter... defending champs pa mandin kami...

anyway, whatever happens, happens for a reason.. or two...

kaya natin to aking dramamates!

when odie and i met this afternoon, she handed me jerome and nicho's holiday gift for me [yeah it was a little bit late, but hey, it was a gift anyway...]. they were supposed to give me separate silver rings for a gift, but then odie decided to combine the money and buy a *taran!* puzzle ring... [odie's aunt own the famous ibay's silver store].

it was pretty cute, and i put it in my thumb. when i got home, i took it off and placed it on top of my study table while i changed my clothes. and wallah! some devil pushed it over and it fell. well naturally, it was disassembled...

and now, i can't fucking put them together. i even had my mom do it and i told her that i would wash the dishes for an entire week if she can put it back in place. she, of course, wasn't able to. and if ever she did, i'll never do the dishes anyway.

then i realized: life is like that damn puzzle ring. when it falls and disassembles, you pick it up and put it right back together in order for it to be freaking useful. of course, if you lack the talent, it may take you hours, or even centuries, to put it back together.

life is a little bit like that. when it breaks apart, you have to put the pieces back together, no matter how hard it is, so you can have a worthy existence.

or something like that... ^____^

monday, 4:00, philo 03, mr edwin mirano.

monday, 4:10, philo 03, mr edwin mirano.

yes, five minutes na lang!

monday, 4:13, philo 03, mr edwin mirano.

two minutes to freedom!!!

monday, 4:15, philo 03, mr edwin mirano.

let's go classmates!! fifteen minutes is up! uwian na mga tol!!!!!


yan ang senario tuwing lunes... wala kaming philo, kasi laging wala ang mahal naming propesor.

kung sa estudyante may friday sickness [yung hindi pumapasok sa eskwelahan tuwing byernes], etong prof naming to may monday sickness... hayup, ilang daan na rin ng tuition fee namin ang nilamutak ng pagkawala nya sa mga lunes simula noong nobyembre...

ni isang make-up class, walang natanggap ang klase namin.

pero may mga natatanging pagkakataon na present sya sa mga iilang lunes na pili... tulad na lang kung ang lunes na yon ay nataon sa kinsenas o katapusan [ibig sabihin sweldo].....

haaaayyyyy............

my friend star and i are figuring out the movements of that coke commercial...

somehow, we managed to put together the moves hanggang sa gets mo na, gets ko na...

haha, konti na lang!

i have figured out the darn movements of the coke commercial thanks to kuya yeoj

here's how it goes.....

Name: Action:
FIST -closed fist,both hands, hit ur lap once...
CLAP -clap once
SNAP -snap once,both hands
LAP -open hands,both, tap ur lap once
LEFT-CHEST -tap ur left chest once,with right
hand
RIGHT-CHEST -tap ut right chest once, with left
hand
RIGHT-L -form an inverted L,closed fist, left
arm chest level(horizontal),right arm
perpendicular to the left arm(vertical)
LEFT-L -form an L,closed fist,right arm chest
level(horizontal),left arm
perpendicular to right arm (vertical)
CIRCLE -closed fist,boxing position near the
chest,make a circular motion, counter-
clockwise direction (horizontal)
CROSS -cross ur arms on ur chest, open hands
SHOULDER -touch ur shoulders,right w/ right
hand, left w/ left hand
POINT -both hands point the person infront of
you, pa-arch ung movement na slow-mo..

basically that's it... ipractice nyo muna...
memorize nyo...

now the action sequence! do as directed above, ok!

eto ung movements na inuulit...

1. FIST, FIST, CLAP, SNAP
2. CLAP, LAP, CLAP, LAP
3. LEFT-CHEST, LAP(right only)
RIGHT-CHEST, LAP(left only)
4. CLAP, LAP, CLAP, LAP

yan ung movements para sa..
1. I-TO-ANG-BEAT
2. SA-BAY-SA-BAY
3. I-TO-ANG-BEAT
4. BA-WAL-SAB-LAY

1.,2.PA-BI-LIS-NG-PA-BI-LIS(mabilis dapat para
sumakto)
3. WAG-MAG-MI-MISS
4. WAG-NAG-MY-MYX

1. NA-LI-LI-TO
2. NA-LI-LI-TO
3. NA-HI-HI-LO
4. NA-HI-HI-LO

ok ba?.. practice nyo, para ma-gets nyo...
ung para naman sa..

GETS MO NA? GETS KO NA?!

GETS - LAP(right hand on left lap)
MO - LAP(left hand,right lap)
NA? - RIGHT-L

GETS - LAP(left hand,right lap)
KO - LAP(right hand,right lap)
NA?! - LEFT-L

o praktisin nyo...

ung action sa *aaaaaah* COCA -COLA!....

*AAAHH!* - CIRCLE
CO - CROSS
CA - SHOULDERS
COLA! - POINT

practice ulit...

tapos ung action sa Coke Ko TOH!

COKE - LAP
KO - CLAP
TOH! - SNAP
2x un..

ung last na coke ko toh!
COKE - LAP
KO - CLAP
TOH - POINT(pero straight na sa COKE, wala ng pa-
arch and slow-mo..)


you guys practice aight....

kahapon nagkaroon ang college namin ng assembly with all second year student nurses. this concerns yung aming Retention Policy.

for more info about that freaking retention policy... CLICK HERE .

800 first year students entered the College of Nursing almost two years ago... kasama na ako don... out of 4000 applicants. wow di ba? pero hindi pa matatapos ang kalbaryo don syempre... you have to pass everything as in everyhting , from religion to PE to ana physio, para maging eligible CANDIDATE [as in candidate lang] for admission to 3rd year. sa 800 na yon, 300 lang ang mapapalad na makakatuntong sa 3rd year. the rest, either take up another course if you want to stay in the same school... or continue your nursing education at some other school.

we are going to be ranked, obviously. pero kung nag-incur ka ng failure sa final grade mo, out ka na sa retention. lufet noh?

see the tremendous amount of pressure we are in to? i mean, we are talking about the next 10 years of my life here. and maybe even the rest of it. pag hindi ako nakuha sa top 300, hindi ko talaga alam kung saan ang punta ko. i have learned to love nursing, seriously. kahit na pinilit lang akong kunin toh...

i dont have much problem on my grades, except for physics. weakness ko talaga ang math... kahit kelan. i was lucky to have passed physics this term... buti hindi ako bumagsak dahil mahirap nang habulin sa midterms and finals kung nagkataon.

sa totoo lang, pagod na ako. pagod na pagod na. lalo na at sa susunod ng linggo ang dramafest.

i could only hope for the best.

alam ko, i can survive this. and i will....

KANLUNGAN



pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

natatandaan mo pa ba,
nang tayong dalwa ay unang nagkita?
panahon ng kamusmusan
sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
doon tayong nagsimulang
mangarap at tumula

natatandaan mo pa ba,
inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
at ang inalay kong gumamela
magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan malayang tulad ng mga ibon
ang gunita ng ating kahapon

ang mga puno't halaman
ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
sa paglipas ng panahon bakit kailangan ding lumisan?

pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

ngayon ikaw ay nagbalik
at tulad ko rin ang iyong pananabik
makita ang dating kanlungan
tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
ngayon ay naglaho na
saan hahanapin pa?

lumilipas ang panahon
kabiyak ng ating gunita
ang mga puno't halaman
bakit kailangan lumisan?

pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

lumilipas ang panahon
kabiyak ng ating gunita
ang mga puno't halaman
bakit kailangan lumisan

pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
maibabalik ba ang kahapon

chorus: (pana-panahon)

"sa paglipas ng panahon bakit kailangan
ding lumisan?"

today is my half birthday...

im 17 and a half....

6 more months and im going to be 18....


should i be happy about that?

January 22, 2003--the happiest day of my life. and so for other 15 people. we swept the drama festival awards from best in set-up design down to best in presentation. seven major awards, and we got them all. with the stars overhead and the roar of applauds and cheers reverberating at CCA, everything was picture perfect. it was like walking on cloud nine and eating the best adobo ever under a mango tree in a warm and sunny day out in the fields. it was one of those rare moments where you watch your dreams unfold into reality right before your very eyes. it was nirvana .



January 22, 2004--same day, same festival, different feeling. we lost.



we did our best, no doubt about that. we fucking did our best! we went beyond our limitations. but that was all we have. that was all i can give. hanggang don lang ako... when i walked out of the technicals booth, i tried to hold my tears back. but the feeling was just overwhelming. "tapos na erwie... tapos na... nagawa na natin pare... when mark told me that, i hugged him and i cried. everyone else in the tech booth gave me a pat on the back.

two months of agony and hard work, and it boiled down to that thirty minutes of presentation.



when i got out from the CCA, i told the cast i was sorry for the errors in lights. hell, i was sorry. i was blaming myself for everything. everybody tried to comfort me. they said all the things that was politely to be.



i was the director, i was the scriptwriter, i was the leader. and i felt that it was all my fault.



but the cast and crew, including ate sam, said it was not. when my tears dried, i began to realize that they were right. it was not my fault, nor anyone's for that matter. god knows how much the group sacrificed just to have a decent presentation. and how we lived up to the pressure. we showed them we could do it, without anybody's help. and we did it! there was no one to help us, no money to spend. we felt alone. but we survived. and thats what winners are made of .




i am proud of my group. they were great, they were marvelous. way beyond words can describe.



January 22, 2004--this day i will never forget. thank you, TINGGE, for making me believe. thank you for the firendship. and thank you for letting me share a little bit of your lives with me. thank you for the time, it was an honor to have worked with such wonderful people.




as i braved the chilly winds to mc donald's session, the tears dried and a smile carved up my face. losing was not so bad afterall. it is all but a part of life.




yes, it is done.

i have a new camera phone. my mom gave this to me two nights ago. the day when everything crashed.. the 7650 mended it all back together.


now, i am going back to my normal life. drama fest took the liberty of snatching me away from the human world for more or less one month. i haven't recovered yet, and im not in a hurry to do so.


i thought all night [rather, all morning.. bec i got home about 2 am from gimbals] of jesus. my religion professor, sir barlis, calls him the man from nazareth for obvious reasons. i was sleepy but i managed still, to think of him. until the scenes from bridal shower flooded my dreams.


jesus was an activist. anyone who opposses that can go right into hell. he was an instrument of social reformation. naisip ko tuloy, sya siguro ang nagpa simuno ng mga rallies at ang ideya ng pagiging tibak.

and because of that, i strongly think jesus was salvaged. he was not prosecuted on the cross and in front of hundreds of people.


isipin mo... think...

im having troube uploading my 5.0 version lay-out so........ im stuck with this lay-out first...

im gonna be gone for the meantime and y'all enjoy urselves, ok?

be back in a week..

ciao!







peace out

the january 22 scene at CCA keeps playing on my mind in a photoshop motion blur.

i gave myself a week to get over the drama fest fiasco. right now, i am working on taking my life back. i seem to do a pretty good job. i came home at 6:30 pm with odie, one thing i haven't done in a very long time. i will drop by our office (white and blue, student paper) tomorrow and see what i can do for my article. which by the way, is again late...

i will eat supper properly again. and it'll follow that i will gain weight, more.


i will miss tingge... can't wait for another workshop...

lei, ayoko!!!

eh bakit ba?

eh ano ka ba?

tao

grrr!!

hehehe...

basta ayoko

porke ba bakla sya?

ano ka ba?! dont mention that again!

teka, let me get this straight xyrel... ayaw mong mainlove kase... BAKLA ANG TAONG MAHAL MO?

ehh...

bakit ba? anong problema don? napipili ba ang mamahalin mo? ano ngayon kung bading yung tao?

sandali nga, he's NOT bading. he's bisexual.........

please tell me the difference......

i can't be inlove with him lei! he's....... bisexual for crying out loud! hinde hinde hinde hinde nhinde! get it? NO! I DONT WANT TO BE INLOVE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!

o, relax lang... ayaw mo nga, pero inlove ka?

hindi nga eh, kulet!

alam mo, i can feel it.. lagi mong kinukwento yung tao.

pero lei...

sis, hindi mo naman choice na ma-inlove sa kanya. it was accidental. magsisinungaling ka pa ba saken?

fine. gusto ko sya. pero ayokong mainlove sa kanya.

bahala ka. buhay mo yan. hindi naman ako ang inlove sa bakla.

lei!!! ano? what will i do?




PARANG AWA NYO NA, TULUNGAN NYO TONG CYBERFRIEND KO... hindi ko na alam kung ano pang sasabihin ko sa kanya......
yan yung convo namin sa YM, tinanggal ko na yung holder nya........

im going to move accounts.. so... reach me here at tabulas.com/~thinkoforange ...



this tab is so messed up, so i decided to make another one... anyway... add me again aight? peace out!